No Doubt - Spiderwebs

Title : No Doubt - Spiderwebs

Memory Lane Accessed Date: 1997-1998

“Im walking into spiderwebs”

Man, I miss No Doubt. Spiderwebs is a nice song to hear to when you know that you are getting yourself into a mess and loving it! In this song lies a story I wanna share.

First, this song inspired me to get my first GF during high school. You see, I was a quiet boy back then, Still am actually ;). However there was this beautiful girl who everybody seems to like including the jocks in the bus. You see, I studied in St.johns, at that time, CBN, ST Mary and BBGS were just along the same long stretch road. As we know, St Mary is no longer near The Weld and BBGS location has become a shopping mall called the pavilion. 

Ok continue to the story, So there she was, all alone with her golden like hair(it was black but when the sun shines on her head, her hair seems to change color.. im a guy, I don’t know how else to explain to you) so to cut things short, I realize all the guys that went after her was ignored completely by her. I wondered what gives? I admit she was attractive but it was more of the curiosity that got me to decide to go on a mission to win her heart.

So this song was playing and I said to myself, Im gonna get myself into soo much trouble after this. Sometime soon after we made first contact, She became my very first GF and we somewhat had load of fun till we broke up. Last thing I heard, shes now married and just got her first child. Im happy for her.

But it puzzles me why women like to marry at such young age. Most of the reasons I heard was about the biological clock thingy and how if you marry late your chances of getting a kid drops. Im not judging, but perhaps it’s more of a peer pressure thing that the bio clock situation.

Anyways, That was the first beginning to a number of unsuccessful relationships. :)

Movie - Vanilla Sky

Title : Movie –Vanilla Sky

Memory Lane Accessed Date:  2012

“Open your eyes..”

I can’t describe how this movie made me feel. It’s one of those movies that will make you think. I will put the last 15 minutes of the film here, you can listen a lot of cool songs they have in those 15mins as well. It’s one of those where in the end, you ask yourself, what if I didn’t screw up, what if I take that moment and turn it all around..

Consequences… it’s the little things that count. I’m not the kind of person to regret over the actions I took, but sometimes you can’t stop thinking and when you think, you tend to shape yourself to not make the same mistake, and that becomes a mistake by itself.

“Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around...”

David: look at us, I’m frozen and you are dead. And I love you..

Sophia: It’s a problem :) (meant to be it’s only a problem)

David: I lost you when I got in that car, I’m sorry. Did you remember what you told me once? Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around...

Sophia: I’ll find you again

David: I’ll see you in another life… when we are both cats.

I don’t know why, someone interesting caught my attention the other day.  She’s beyond my league that’s for sure. But I don’t know, This movie clip is playing in my head after I saw her blog. Look at us, I’m frozen and you are dead.. in this case, look at us,we donteven know each other and we are both from different worlds.. I wish somehow she would say… “It’s only  a problem… :)”

 Damn….. What if…. You are my Sophia…

Hoobastank - To Be With You

Title : Hoobastank – to be with you

Memory Lane Accessed Date:  1997-2012

“Make me feel again”

This has got to be one of the few songs which not many people have heard but it’s just simply awesome and romantic. I have been thru a few (actually quite a number ;)) of relationships and every time when I feel I’m ready to fall in love again, this song comes to mind.

If you are in a relationship, your emotional state is either on top(when you feel that both you and her could conquer the world) or at the bottom(when she does things that no one would like). If you haven’t been in a relationship then your emotions would be neutral, nothing too exiting or nothing too bad.  At least that’s true for me.

“I’ll open up, if you promise to give in”

I’ve been thru a number of relationships and seriously I am getting bored of it. Nothing I do seems to work. Come to think of it, I have been thru relationships for the past 15 years, WOW! (no I’m not that old, my first GF was when I was still in early years of highschool)

Well as much as I want someone to make me feel again, perhaps its better that Im single. Who ever says “to love and lost is better than not to love at all” is a fool. How could you ever feel anything for something you don’t have compared to the feeling of losing something that you have.

Hooverphonics - Eden

Title : Hooverphonics -Eden

Memory Lane Accessed Date:  2012

“Did you ever think of me?”

We have been together for 3 years and suddenly you tell me you don’t love me like you use to? What the shit are you talking about(wished I had said that). Seriously, I’ve given her the world. Maybe I should have not done so but would you have done the same if you feel that the both of you were suited for each other? It’s a gamble, one that anyone who is serious in a relationship would have taken. 

I thought you were my Eden, and I was yours. Of all my relationships, we had so much fun, shared so much secret with each other, and loved each other so much. Why did things go wrong?

You choose to let me go at the time where I needed you the most. In the end, you are the same like the rest of them. Always the same its not you it’s me excuse. After being in a few relationships, I realize it no longer matters to find out what she is really hiding. I just accepted the truth as she says it. I told her what I’ve told the rest of them before,” I never gave up on us, You did”. “I will have no choice but to move forward even if my heart is broken into pieces”.

In the end…

“I never reached your Eden..”